gibberish in broad daylight

there has to be an exit from this drudgery.

i don't believe i'm doomed. i'm just bored and senseless and the day didn't dawn right. and the dogs were noisy. and i left something in the house. it's not even a bad hairday. it's a bad day. and we all have that. but i have it now.

and i stare at this nervous computer, trying to be of value to some geeks, trying to write some things that i'm not interested in, trying to convince myself that i care about "ways to tend your garden" and "how to maximize the use of those online coupons." i try to see some sense in this and feign some science of tolerance.

once in a while, like right now, we tend to be philosophical about things... why are we doing these works? what's the purpose? where's the reason? is this what the heart desires? and we end up with equally-enigmatic reflections. the answers are not around the bend, actually it's not even in the next bend. but it must be somewhere. or why the budding of that question? (or is this another fallacy)

the science of tolerance.
and the art of optimism.
in an otherwise dreary day.
some of the greatest minds should have elaborated more about these. i can't find my predicament in the periodic table of elements, so why the chart? i can't see my future in newton's laws, so why the thick books? i can't answer my purpose with the tangents, co-tangents, sines, and co-sines, so why the unforgiving math teacher?

in the face of insurmountable trivialities (which im sure i've heard somewhere), may i still be able to have that "passion for life" (which i've heard in discovery channel, referring to filipino dancers).

may i not be drowned by all the meaningless coupons and gardening tips.

may i find pleasure in eating the kfc meal i just ordered.
(that's the spirit, my friend).

tech retard

if you were trying to google something about ubuntu, and you were led to this blog... that is NOT my fault. i also don't understand how the google god works at times. i won't talk about ubuntu, it sounds like an undesirable foreign object. maybe it is.

im a tech-retard to some extent, i use the computer everyday. but i hate to understand it too much. i don't need to, just as long as my ym or im or skype is running fine, and the emails are working, and explorer is launching, and the whole thing connects me to the internet heaven, im fine and kicking.

today, i came across ubuntu while i was trying to complete some office work, and i was supposed to comment on some blog posts. so here was this blog with an intro: "I’ve tried installing both Fedora Core 5 and Ubuntu Dapper Beta on my Acer Travelmate 4101WLMi (i915 graphics version). There’s a huge difference compared to earlier versions, such as Ubuntu Breezy."

i read it five times before admitting that my IQ is not blinking AT ALL. what on earth is fedora and ubuntu. it is grrrreeeek. and how am i supposed to comment about a greek entry. try french.

thanks to my officemate, she told me that it's a linux OS. oh there you go. i thought it was some sort of exotic tribe. ubuntu. c'mon.

i'm working as a web writer. and although im aversed to the too-technical stuff, i have to understand and tolerate it somehow.

and when my officemate asked me, do you do html?

GOD, NO.

poems, random articles maybe. html NO.

:)

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just added this today, i've bumped into what ubuntu really means:
"Ubuntu" is an ancient African word, meaning "humanity to others". Ubuntu also means "I am what I am because of who we all are"

sweet.